Ask me if I'm okay.
if it's not that bad,
I'll say I'm fine.
Ask me if I'm sure, if I'm really okay,
until I spill.
It will take some time
and I will be reluctant
but eventually my wall will break.
No matter how mad or irritated
I get, keep pushing until I say
I'm not okay.
Then I will tell you everything.
I will probably stop breathing at times;
remind me to breathe.
I will probably hyperventilate;
remind me to breathe slowly.
I will probably start pacing;
I will probably bite my fingernails;
make me aware I am doing so, so I can stop.
I will probably start crying;
Hold me and let me cry,
let me try to keep talking,
let me apologize over and over once I am done.
I will not say it,
but I will appreciate what you are doing.
I will not be able to thank you,
but if you pay attention,
and if you are gentle with me,
I will appreciate you just being there,
and I will be beyond appreciation if you are helping me.