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You're joking
Right?

I thought
I thought you hated him
with a burning passion

I thought
he could be mine
and you'd just have to deal with it
but

now

I can't help but fall
again

It feels like
like you betrayed me
when I know
I know you didn't

And you talk about
whoever
someone else
I feel like I'm safe
I can actually pull through with this
I can actually be happy

But
now
how will I face you?

Mostly
how did I not
not know?

I look back
now
and I realize
it was so obvious
but I was blind
blinded by myself
protecting myself.

You have to be kidding
kidding me
talking about someone else
not him
he's mine
you know that

How do I face either of you
again
now
that I know

Maybe he still thinks . . . 

maybe he's joking too

Please
stop
I need it
not the skinny
skinny 'love' I last had

I need something to hold to
something besides my
music and my worn shoes
how will I be able to use them again
now
it won't be the same

I can't let it go
I try
but
I'm a good girl
I can't let people in that easily
how will I ever be able to
with either of you?

If you only hadn't done that
if you'd stayed with your normal
I could look forward to
tomorrow
but
it's now
and I can't
I can't keep on
anymore

He fills what they took
what they all took
what you took
and will take
and
now
all he's done
without even his knowing,
gone

now
I'm just a shell
you took away what was left
I hope
I can hold on
through this
that no one else tries to take
because
I wouldn't
be able to
and you'd never
never know
I am so done. I give up.
That just about broke me.

I'm sorry I feel this way about, but I will always blame you. If you'd just not done that, I'd be fine. You specifically said you didn't normally do that. Why?

I can't believe that hurt so much. I should have known. And you didn't even know you did it. You'll probably never know. So, just don't even bother. I won't bother, because I can't let it go. I can't even bring it up.

'Conceal, don't feel.' Anyone recognize that? Well, I wish it was true.
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